Venting?

May. 1st, 2012 03:45 pm
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If I could write an open letter to Jared right now I'm not sure what I would say.

Goodness knows I loved the man and would never hesitate to defend him from haters and hate that he did little to deserve.

Now though - after the Asylum fiasco - I am unsure what to think only to say that this man has broken me...

I feel incredibly stupid but life has been worse than shite recently. My health has not been the best and I have managed to get over being told I have to have a serious operation or die, get over the fact my daughter's fiance left her without explanation, get over a severe throat infection that prevented me from having treatment in hospital and talk my husband through the disppointment of him not getting a job he wanted. In these past few weeks and months I did all of this without shedding many tears yet on Saturday when I heard Jared wasn't coming (was never coming - depending on what you believe) to Asylum I wept like a fecking baby.

I can't explain why this should affect me so much; I guess because of all the things that have happened it was the LEAST important as far as life's plan is concerned and yet I cannot quite get over it. Maybe it was because it was my last 'hurrah' if you will or maybe because my hubby paid for me to go as a treat and now - because I no longer want to go - he has wasted his money and yet upset for me at the same time.

You may think I am foolish, a mad old woman or just plain daft but there you go - had to say it and get if off my chest.

Ta for listening

Date: 2012-05-01 03:39 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vera6.livejournal.com
No, you aren't foolish. I do not believe for one second that he was 'never' going to do it. These guys get paid a boatload of cash for each con. Their year's are long planned out in advance. They know exactly where they are supposed to be months in advance. Of course work commitments always take priority. And I totally understand why Jared doesn't want to do it-his baby is 7 weeks old and he just wants to be around him. Nobody is questioning that. Nor should they. Precontracts must exist otherwise if the con doesn't go ahead the guests wouldn't even get a percentage of their appearance fees. It could have been handled so much better. I feel so upset for all the people going to Asylum 8 now. If either if the boys pull out of ChiCon I would be livid.

It's the straw that broke the camel's back. You've had an avalanche of shit the past few months. Most important thing is look after yourself. Then look after your family. And go to Asylum & enjoy meeting the guests that turn up

Hugs

Date: 2012-05-01 10:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] myorangecrush.livejournal.com
I don't believe either that he was never going to do it. They wouldn't be able to advertise it with him being there and Asylum is big enough for people to notice, without his 'people' finding out. His friends/co stars are going and surely some would have mentioned it.

The way that it was found out, via rumour and then denial and then confirmation was horrid. I can only imagine what it must feel like to have had these hopes up, have paid the money and then it being ripped away.

Asylum needs to get better at securing, and keeping, the 'big names'. Yes, he's got a son, but in all honesty - do the maths and don't say no.

Date: 2012-05-03 01:22 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blackbeltblondi.livejournal.com
My thoughts exactly!! I got ripped into for voicing them on another thread lol but I just think the whole way it happened was just so shitty.

I know the boys lie to save face and make themselves look better when they do things they know is going to piss the fans off, and I truly believe that Jared lied about this too.

Date: 2012-05-03 08:02 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] munibunny.livejournal.com
I'm so sorry things are so rough for you right now. You don't know me, and I've only ended up here by accident tonight (looking for fic to cheer me up, of all things), but I want you to know that I'm thinking about you. Sometimes, it seems that all things are conspiring against you, that everything is going wrong, and it certainly doesn't help that people don't understand your perspective.

You are perfectly justified in the way you feel. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

Have your surgery and let your family take care of you. A few years ago, I almost didn't make it through heart surgery and suffered a stroke in the process. It has been a long road back, but it's amazing how much your perspective on life changes once you've gone through something like this. Trust me, you will be able to find joy in writing and watching TV and reading and so much more.

I know you have friends and family who support you, but if you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. *hugs*

Date: 2012-05-03 08:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] annie46.livejournal.com
Ah thank you so much.

These sorts of comments make me feel so much better!!

I love your writing (True Colours right?) and as you say you do start to look at things in a better light when shit happens!!

Just would have given me something lovely to think about if Jared had come but life goes on and there is always next year!!

Thanks again

Date: 2012-05-10 07:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] peepingdru.livejournal.com
I soooooooooooooooooo understand about final straws...please take care.....and thank u for all u give...xoxooxoxox

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